Sometimes it feels like society is just waiting for us to become who we were meant to be – every step we take is just part of something bigger. What if it isn’t? What if there isn’t a larger truth? What if the present is all that truly exists? Well, if that were true then I would say a great majority of people are squandering life. They are doing this unintentionally, of course, because when it comes down to it all of us just really want to be happy but we aren’t really sure how to go about accomplishing that goal.When I first entered the College of the Humanities I remember thinking that I had two reasons to be in university. One, I wanted to learn more about everything and two, I needed to be in school. I say that I needed to be in school because it wasn’t just the desire to obtain a degree (which would hopefully lead to a prosperous career at some point down the road) that motivated me. I needed to stay in my comfort zone. I have always loved school and staying in the academic world made me feel safe. As I write this I have realized that my second reason for attending university is less applicable to who I am now, but I am still in the Humanities because I want to learn and I do not think that will ever change. However, making the jump from feeling an innate need to be in school to valuing Humanities for what it is was not an easy process.
One of the most valuable lessons I have learned from the Humanities program is how to be honest with myself. This is not to be confused with being true to myself. Rather, Humanities has taught me to be humble, to listen quietly, to lead with determination, and most importantly to embrace the knowledge that I will never know everything. I find that there is a real freedom in being honest about your passions at university because everyone else is also trying to figure out himself or herself. We are all making mistakes and facing challenges at the same time – but we are also all reading texts, listening to music, and looking at art created by people who were once like us. No one is an exception in this world and being in a program that demonstrates that on a daily basis both reassures and humbles me. Every day I am confronted with greatness – and it’s an amazing experience to connect with ideas and concepts that always seemed inaccessible before university.
The Humanities reminds me on a daily basis to stop, breathe, and think about my own abilities along with those of my peers. I often tell my friends from other programs that I have never been more in awe of people than I am at the College. Sometimes I just sit in the lounge, look at my peers and wonder at their intelligence and wit. That is not to say that we never make statements that are less than accurate or inappropriate for an academic paper, but on the whole my peers have great potential. However, I do not think that we just have potential because that implies that we have to wait to make use of our skills and I’m not entirely sure what we would be waiting for – when does our future start? I think it’s already happening and I think we are all who we were meant to be. It just took the College of the Humanities to show us that our time is now.